9 days pre-surgery, this could be a long post.....I'd kill someone for a hamburger right...
on 12/13/14 1:02 pm - Loganville, GA
Okay, I'm almost a week into the liquid diet. I am dealing with it, but definitely having a hard time with it. I tend to eat when I am stressed or anxious, and I'm right in the middle of final exams, so this is harder than I ever expected. I'm going through a roller coaster of emotions right now due to the liquid diet, school, and just life in general. I'm getting very anxious about the process, not necessarily the surgery, but more of the ability to to stay on the plan afterwards. I love food, and I know I'm doing the right thing with the surgery, I've done everything I can think of to lose weight over the years. I'm 36 and I have dealt with weight issues since I was 5 years old. I have been considering WLS for at least a decade now, and I finally decided to take the plunge. I'm frustrated, angry, upset, depressed...you name it...I'm feeling it right now. I know there's a huge psychological factor in doing what I'm doing, I just need it to plateau before I go insane.
I'm still behind you in the process- but I know it's hard to stay strong when you've got so much going on in your life.
Try to take it one day at a time- and remember that what you are doing right now will make the surgery that much quicker and your risks will be lower.
Also- let yourself feel the emotions. I just had my second psych visit- and he told me something that I've been trying to do as well. He said emotions are like weather- they come and go. When you're feeling something- make room for it, feel it, and eventually it will pass. The issues come when you try to fight the emotions.
I'll be where you are in a month- so good luck!!
You can do this! It's hard. I KNOW how hard it is. But not impossible. Just take it a day at a time. I really like the pp advice about emotions being like the weather. It's very true. This will all be a memory soon and it will be SO, SO worth it! I feel like I just did this part yesterday and it's already been 6 months! Its the best thing you can do for yourself. Hang in there! Soon you'll be on the other side of it.
This will pass. These weeks are the hardest, but a year from now you'll barely remember it. Stick to the plan, and you'll be glad you did.
6'3" tall, male.
Highest weight was 475. RNY on 08/21/12. Current weight: 198.
M1 -24; M2 -21; M3 -19; M4 -21; M5 -13; M6 -21; M7 -10; M8 -16; M9 -10; M10 -8; M11 -6; M12 -5.
The mental aspect is definitely the most difficult. And pre-surgery is difficult because you don't have the sleeve to help you with portion control. I also am a stress eater. That will get better. I burn my stress now walking...or shopping for new clothes :) Like everyone says, one day at a time and you can sty on plan. Good luck and you will not regret what you are doing for yourself!
The liquid diet just sucks.
Are you seeing a therapist? It sounds like your really being pulled through the wringer with everything going on and a therapist can really help you to learn how to cope with those things.
VSG with Dr. Salameh - 3/13/2014
Diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder and started Vyvanse - 7/22/2016
Reconstructive Surgeries with Dr. Michaels - 6/5/2017 (LBL & brachioplasty), 8/14/2017 (UBL & mastopexy), 11/6/2017 (medial leg lift)
Age 42 Height 5'4" HW 319 (1/3/2014) SW 293 (3/13/2014) CW 149 (7/16/2017)
Next Goal 145 - normal BMI | Total Weight Lost 170
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on 12/14/14 1:47 am - Loganville, GA
Yes, I've been seeing a therapist for several months now for some other deep seeded issues, but we definitely talk about the upcoming surgery and the emotions going through it. It does help a lot. My biggest problem is that I am my own worst enemy when it comes to emotions and thinking.
I hear you there :/ Just got to keep on working through it. Eventually we'll get to be the people we want to be :)
VSG with Dr. Salameh - 3/13/2014
Diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder and started Vyvanse - 7/22/2016
Reconstructive Surgeries with Dr. Michaels - 6/5/2017 (LBL & brachioplasty), 8/14/2017 (UBL & mastopexy), 11/6/2017 (medial leg lift)
Age 42 Height 5'4" HW 319 (1/3/2014) SW 293 (3/13/2014) CW 149 (7/16/2017)
Next Goal 145 - normal BMI | Total Weight Lost 170
TrendWeight | Food Blog (sort of functional) | Journal (down for maintenance)