Setback had me questioning this entire decision

Maybe it was because i was sooooo focused and only 12 DAYS away from this life-changing surgery. Maybe it was because I had been running around like a crazy person for 3 months from pre-op clearance to pre-op clearance appointments and testings and it cost me a boatload of specialist co-pays and hospital co-pays for procedures etc etc. I have to admit that I was actually angry to find out that something i had been working so hard towards was being postponed until who knows when. Angry. That is not something that is usually associated with me. I am very laid back and calm. But I was actually physically/mentally angry for about 3 weeks after i found out about my H. Pylori infection, which postponed by surgery. It had me questioning everything from the decision to go for a consultation all the way down to 12 days before surgery. Was this a sign? Am I making the wrong decision? Am I not supposed to have surgery? Or was this just "one of those things that happen" and it just happened to fall 12 days before my surgery that I had prepared so strategically for? 

Fortunately, I have calmed down and am beginning to remember and remind myself why I started this journey. To prevent Diabetes which runs rampant in my family. To be around to see my babies grow up and have families of their own. To be able to actually go on amusement park rides with my girls and not have to tell them "sorry, i cant baby". To be able to get my weight under control and manage it and maintain it with this amazing tool. To Live. Oh, to Live and make the most out of my life. Changing the merry-go-round weight loss that i've always endured throughout my life, no matter what i try to do. To take charge. I remember why. And i can't wait to re-schedule my surgery.

I would have had the same doubts and questions...not to mention the disappointment and anger! It's understandable! My A/C broke right before my surgery. That was a lot of $$$ that I needed to use for the surgeon & hospital but I stepped back and figured it out. I am so glad you are not seeing red anymore and moving forward! A few weeks delay is nothing compared to the rest of your life! Hell, I've been in a 3 week stall so not much of a difference whether its a stall or surgery postponed for a few weeks lol. You are going to do this and you will look back and wonder why you ever got so bent out of shape. Hang in there and get better! Just be glad this infection was caught beforehand and not after causing major complications!! You are going to do this!!!

Thank you so much sweetie! I appreciate the support! And you are totally right! Once it is all said and done, i will feel exactly that way, like what was the big deal? Thank you so much and don't worry, i've heard that 3 week stall is inevitable, but you'll power through it! 

BRAVO........you've come out of your funk (certainly understandable after all your planning and coordinating).......it's a true pity that you've had to go through all of that, but your mindset is fabulous and I'm a firm believer that the mind is one of the most powerful tools we have....and the tools you are now setting in place will serve you well.

Keep up that positive attitude and for sure you will be a true success story. I hope you're able to reschedule soon and you'll see how quickly all of this stress goes away.

Best of everything to you!

Thank you so much! You are so sweet! I am hoping to discuss re-scheduling with the surgeon next week some time, as I am sure that after i bombarded my system with 14 days of major antibiotics, any bacteria ANYWHERE in my body has now vacated. Lol! :) 

When you are up to your ass in alligators it is difficult to remind yourself that your initial objective was to drain the swamp.

That was a very good one. I have to remember that one. :) Thanks for the laugh. 

Hang in there, it will be worth it. My advice is once you've had it done stick to the rules to the letter. Not sure where or who your using because that makes a difference too. Regardless stick to the rules so as to not have any OH NO what have I done moments.

I am 30 days post op and clear sailing so far, Unfortunately that isn't the same for some folks who post on this and other blogs. Without knowing their entire situation I would still venture a guess that they may be breaking the rules.

I have lost 60 pounds post op, mostly fluid retention but still 60 pounds. My doctor has already taken me off of most of my pre op meds.

Thank you! I absolutely will do whatever they tell me to do. That is the only way to succeed. Hopefully I will be re-scheduled by the end of next month and be on my way. We shall see. 

Good for you!  I saw your original post and felt so badly for you.. 

Thank you for the update.  Believe me, it WILL be worth it, despite the bumpy prequel. All of those positive outcomes  (active with kids, health, off the merry-go-round) will happen as you described.  

Being able to bounce back when things don't go your way is a characteristic that will serve you well. 

Best wishes!

Shel