Feeling like a failure already

Oct 21, 2014

Not even 2 weeks after the surgery and I feel like a complete failure.  I haven't cheated or anything but I just feel like the results I expected from this surgery are not being fulfilled.  I wanted WLS primarily to put my diabetes into remission.  I am still on insulin. I talk to people all the time who say they were off all their Meds upon leaving the hospital.  Not me.  Almost 2 weeks out and I am still taking insulin...although I admit my blood sugar is notably lower.  I wanted my surgery to help me get my blood pressure under control without having to adjust my Meds.  It was creeping up as of my last cardiologist visit prior to surgery.  I tested my blood pressure at the pharmacy..it was still just as high as it was at the cardiologist's office and I am still on Meds.  I was hoping this surgery would curb my hunger.  It did initially.  I didn't want anything.  Now my stomach grumbles and cramps like crazy when I sip soup.  Maybe it's the fluids.  Maybe it's head hunger.  I don't know, but it feels real.  I do consume much less, but hell I was never an over eater and I'm on a liquid diet!  I was hoping this surgery would help me lose weight fast.  Granted the weight is coming off and that in itself is a miracle because I could diet for months and not lose a lb.  I have only lost 10 lbs since surgery.  This is disappointing.  I think I lost more with my lap band post op at this stage.  How do I know that the weight loss is due to the surgery and not the liquid diet alone?  I lost almost as much weight (8 lbs) on the pre-op liquid diet.  I expected better results.  I can't help but to wonder whether I made a mistake by choosing this highly experimental surgery over the tried and true RnY.  There just isn't enough data, there is very little support, and so I feel like those of us going thru this are pretty much learning from each other, the blind leading the blind.  I thought it was a blessing since it seemed to not encompass anything that I disliked about RnY or the actual DS....but the jury is still out on the results.  Maybe my expectations are too high, I don't know, but as I continue to think of how my expectations have not yet been met, I can only be certain of one thing, I. FEEL. LIKE. A. FAILURE. (And a fool).

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