chimeraboo
Feeling Better
Oct 23, 2014
Thank you all for the words of encouragement and advice in response to my last blog entry. I think I was feeling very uneasy about my weight loss after allowing myself to be cut on, and the food deprivation didn't help. I have heard that feelings of "buyer's remorse" soon after surgery is very common. I am in a much better place after some self-reflection, prayer, and a follow-up visit with my surgeon today.
Last night when I was walking through my neighborhood I realized that a lot of anxiety was due to me mourning over the loss of my food. I know it's not gone forever, but it's been a month since I could eat and my mental cravings are very real. Head hunger is something else! I can't wait to see my psych so she can give me some tips to cope with it. I also realized I spend a lot of idle time not doing much, which allows my thoughts to be overcome with worry. I need to keep myself busy doing productive things so I don't have time to worry.
I read my Bible a lot. Sometimes I neglect to apply it to my life. Philippians 4:6 says: "Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done." (Philippians 4:6 NLT). I need to start doing this and relax.
I had my first post-op visit with Dr. Enochs today. According to his scale I have lost 13 lbs since surgery (my scale said I'd only lost 11...and that was with clothes off. I feel better now. I ask Dr. Enochs if I should expect to lose slower because I revised. He definitively said yes. My body is not as shocked by the metabolic changes or the decrease in food consumption. It remembers the band. So apparently my expectations were indeed too high. He told me I should expect to lose about 20-30 lbs the first month, 15-20 the second month, and 5-10 lbs from there on out. I am going to work my butt off in the gym to help my body release the weight. I also asked him about the gurgling and rumbling in the bottom of my belly. He said I was probably taking in air when I was eating and told me to slow down when I eat. He cleared me to eat purées and some soft foods. I had grits this morning. It was great. Kept me full all day and I only ate about 2 or 3 oz. toddler spoons help with eating slower for me. He also cleared me to do aerobic exercises that aren't too strenuous. I might do a water aerobics class on Saturday. Things are looking up. I need to stay away from the scale except on designated weigh-in days (Fridays). The scale makes me crazy. That's all for now!
