Pre-Op Day 1

Sep 25, 2016

For the past few weeks I was really looking forward to getting to the Pre-Op stage.  I kept thinking about how great it was going to eventually feel.  Turns out, you don't feel great as instantaneously as I thought.  Pysically, I'm tired and my muscles are sore and I don't know if it has to do with how I'm eating or with the really crappy sleep I had last night.

Emotionally, I'm ok, but I can tell I miss my comforts.  Yesterday I was out driving, constantly surrounded by fast food joints and all sorts of temptations and I was fine and I felt in control.  Today I was doing the exact same thing but had to often stop and remind myself that I couldn't just pull up at any drive thru.  The difference between the two days was one simple thing - choice.  Yesterday I had a choice, today I did not.  I've started denying myself.  The brain can be a strange thing.... always playing tricks, but I must beat it. 

The good thing about all this is I'm eating enough to not feel hungry so my desire for crap is coming solely from my mind and not my stomach. 

It's only one day but it's still one day and that's one day more than I had yesterday.  I will keep fighting!

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