Realizing how far I've come
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I was looking through some pictures of the day I sent my son to Afghanistan and I just can't believe I was that woman. I'm completely unrecognizable, even to myself. It's been 1 year and I'm a new person. I don't have all the answers but I have a lot more answers than I did then. I have more confidence in myself and my ability to do this. I'm stronger and much healthier. My skin and hair look so much better. I'm obviously a ton smaller.
All of this has happened in one year. One year ago I was contemplating the surgery. Now, it's complete and I feel like life has completely started over for me.
And THEN there are the mind changes. I still obsess about food, my therapist said I may never get away from that, but the obsession is manageable and I'm working on being ok with that until/if it stops. However, even in the obsession I know that thinking about it will not hurt me, acting on those thoughts will....and i've quit acting on them.
Also, I am gearing up for vacation in 3 days and guess what?! I'm not looking at it as a food fest! I know what my family has planned for every meal and I know what I can eat each day. I already have a plan and I'm not even a little concerned about sticking to it. It is just what I do. And I'm so happy with it.
One year...that's all it's taken. I'm wondering what the next year has for me!
Thank you - I needed something to focus myself on the long view - I'm getting severely bummed out after a total of five (three before, two since) weeks on liquids only and the prospect of three weeks of bland mush in a weeks' time isn't exactly setting my heart on fire or a putting spring in my step.
SLEEVED 21 May 14 with Dr. B. Greene. Max weight 470 lifetime; 395 pre-op; goal weight 190. Current weight 217; 178 lost so far, 27 to go and keep off.
