5 Yrs 3 mo's Post Op - Gained 32.2 pounds :(

Sep 02, 2014

I just looked at my OH Blog from prep during and post surgery.  I am at work and it is emotional to check as I have gained weight.  32.2 pounds from my lowest weight post surgery of 215.70  I originally weighed 324 (thought it was 326) and lost 108.30 pounds.  The 76.10 I have kept off is nothing to scoff about but I am feeling very fat at 248.9 pounds and worried a lot about my weight gain getting even more out of control - so I will take charge.

I need to re-commit and re-learn the basics.  I read someone write 'I don't know anyone who went back to the basics and DIDN'T loose weight'  I think that is true - and hopeful.  Though I am scared -because I need to let go of the eating I am doing for happiness stress and boredom/loneliness. I need to address these age old issues again,.  But I need to also not get too depressed over the gain so I can feel my power - what I have achieved - so I can tap into that and get the weight off.

Also - I want to weigh 180.  I want to be well below 200 - that was what I wanted originally. I need to believe I can do that and do it.  But start with reasonable goals - 1lb a week - and I have a horse who's in apx 2 weeks to motivate and a trip to Hawaii in Jan and my 54 bday apx 6 yrs post op anniversary all as milestone motivators.

So I say to the world and myself - I am preparing to kick my ass back into gear and get this 32.2 off - and then MORE. IT STARTS NOW!

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