I'm nervous but on my way.

Feb 26, 2010

A lot has happened in the last month or so in order to get my ducks in a row to have WLS.  I chose a doctor (Dr. Alvarez), Set a date (March 9,2010), made my 1,000 deposit, had to get a certified birth certificate for a passport, got a passport, got a loan, purchased plane tickets and notified work that I will need to be off for 2 weeks and filled out FMLA paperwork.  It's hard to believe that I will be starting my pre-op 10 day liquid diet tomorrow.  I'm pretty nervous about that.  I've been moody today and have felt like I'm eating my last meal.  I know that's not rational and that I will be able to eat again but not in the same way.  It's kind of like I'm mourning my old "comfortable" way of life.  I have a lot of fears.  Mostly that I will not be able to maintain any weight that I lose for the long term.  I have been reading lots of different forums and it seems like everyone does really well the first 6 mo but those who are out 2 years or so are struggling with weight regain.  That just seems devistating to me.  I don't want to go through this huge life changing event only to be a failure at it. 
Is it obvious that I'm not the most positive person here? :)

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