My vivid bad dreams are back.

Jul 17, 2015

My stall breaks, and then my bad dreams come back.  It always involves me losing my family.  either in whole or in part.  In this 2 hours of sleep I lost all of my children to the same type of cancer.  And it all happened fast and without us unable to be there.  My husband was working so hard that he could barely care.  I woke up so angry and so sad.  And immediately wanted to run upstairs and wake them up and hug them and cover them in kisses, but that would freak them out.

I am sure that it has to do with my stress I am going through right now.  And I know that we hormone dump when we lose weight.  I just wish my dreams were vivid and of a happier nature.  

But I am down to 308 this morning.  I can't smile about it yet, but I am slowly getting there.  

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