ericia S.
eat an enjoy
Mar 31, 2010
well I was just thinking about the way I eat, I notice I am an extreme dieter, no matter what I eat and weigh I feel I will always feel this way, OK some people say I look so, too small but I just can’t believe it. I mean its not like I am at a healthy weight how can people say such a thing? I know I have come a long way but still I feel like I am still over weight. yes I can were a size 12 pants a large some medium shirt, but somehow it doesn't feel like it. I thought it was going to be different. I like too put on a happy face and say I feel so great. don't get me wrong I do, but I just feel like I am so over weight still, when I look at myself I think man I should lose another 50lbs. but I know that's crazy because I am not going that far. my goal is to lose just 12 more pound and if I am lucky I could have my plastic surgery, I went to my PCP today because I have very bad pain in my stomachill be doing a barium test xray on the 9Th. hoping there nothing going on, I am thinking maybe all of my skin is just pulling and causing me pain. well she gave me a referral to see a plastic surgeon I am hoping it will workout.
there is and will always be a part of me that just loves food, but food will not control me. I will control the food! I make things happen and food will not.
well I just want to share how I was feeling and know that just because you lose weight doesn't mean you will be a happier person just because the weight is gone, I think I feel this way is because I have so much skin but hopefully some day soon it will all go away.
So in the meantime I must eat and enjoy my life without food taking over mylife.
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stockton, CA
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32.4
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Surgery
02/03/2009
Surgery Date
Apr 13, 2008
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