Melissa D.
Time for a Change
May 07, 2014
I haven't blogged in SO LONG I don't even know where to start! So I guess I'll start with where I'm at today.... I'm not sure how much I weigh today, but I was weighed on 4/13 at the gym I joined and the scale said 209.8. I about died! The trainer did my fitness profile and here are some of the other stats... My body fat percentage is 43.4, blood pressure is 120/62 "Fair", and finally my aerobic fitness level needs work. You would think that after finding all that out I would go to the gym religiously, but I haven't been since. It's time to make some changes!
If you are reading this and are about to have surgery or if you have had surgery and are still in the "honeymoon" stage you may be asking yourself how in the world did this chic gain 40+ pounds??!! The surgery is suppose to be a permanent fix right!!?? I honestly thought this would never happen to me. I went into this thinking I would never have to watch what I ate or diet ever again. YEA RIGHT!! I went from 312 lbs to 161 lbs in 13 months with little to no effort. Life was good! I was skinny, my legs didn't touch (I had the thigh gap!), I looked good in EVERYTHING I wore then alcohol got in the way...
You may have heard of "addiction transfer". Addiction transfer is a very real, very scary thing. I never thought it would happen to me, but it did. My grandmother died the week after I got married in August of 2010. She was the first person I've lost that I was close to. So on top of being married (again) and trying to get used to that I also had to get used to life without my grandmother. After her death my mom asked my husband and I if we wanted to move into and rent my grandmother's house. We agreed and then we were going through the process of cleaning her 4 bedroom, 2 bath, 2 car garage house out and moving for the second time that year. Things were pretty stressful and that time and instead of managing the stress in a healthy way, I turned to alcohol. It was my way of forgetting stress and unwinding at the end of the work day. I never thought alcohol would make me gain weight like crazy! I didn't realize there were SO MANY calories in it. I couldn't figure out why I was gaining weight and gaining it fast.
In June of 2011 I was diagnosed with endometriosis. It's a very painful disease, one in which alcohol makes it worse. But I used alcohol for the pain. So now I'm using alcohol for pain and stress and unwinding and it has turned into a nightly/daily thing. It's out of control and it's time for a change.
I don't have a problem with food and over eating. I don't eat a whole lot of sugar and I never eat ice cream which used to be one of my most favorite things. So the key to getting this weight off will be to quit drinking alcohol for good. I can drink a pint of whiskey every night. A pint of whiskey has over 1,000 calories in it 
So yea that's why I'm so fat.
So here's the plan... I'm going to write out a revised goal list and post to this blog daily (like I used to do). Blogging helps me in a huge way! I'm going to actually use the gym membership I've been paying for since March and I will try my damndest to quit drinking alcohol!!!! I'll try to post a new goal list tomorrow, but today my goal will be to track my calories or My Fitness Pal and I'll be hitting the gym tonight and of course no alcohol!
