Cernigl1
Pre Op WLJ 6/27
Jul 24, 2014
It is 4 days until my call from the nurse. I am feeling: Anxious, nervous, excited, worried, and ready all at the same time. My phone consult with the nurse is 7/1 this will be a journey to change my lifestyle; at least I hope it will. My fiancé thinks I am nuts, and even though he is partly right, every night I go home make dinner clear the dishes and then go on you tube so that I can see all the people that have already been through this process. It is amazing in 1 years’ time the different people of the world transform their body and their lives into healthy living. I went through this process 4 years ago, but it was all for vanity and the wrong reasons. I must not have been ready because I opted out of the surgery and I thought I could do this on my own. I still think I could do this on my own, probably, but I need a kick in the butt that isn’t going to allow me to rationalize, or finagle my diet. I need to be held accountable for what I put in my mouth. What better way than feeling nauseous every time I stick something in my mouth that I should. J
So I think ahead to the actually day when the surgery is complete and I can watch the lbs fall off of me. I want so badly to want to work out again, to be able to move without my knees aching and my ankle throbbing. I live for the day when I can make a You Tube video for myself and be like Oh I don’t even recognize that girl anymore. I will miss the old me, but just in passing because I intend to be better in every way. I will have energy to walk my dog and take my son to the park. I will go to the beach and ride the waves with best of them. I will have energy and the love I have in my heart for all my family and friends will spread through my life and shine off me like the sun!
I know these are high expectations but why shouldn’t I aim high. I am worth it! I have so much love in my life and support, I am so blessed.
