This is bad...

Nov 29, 2010

I feel like I get on OH more than I check my e-mail!   This site has become addictive ... (FYI: I read something about OH being on Facebook, if someone could let me know where at it would be greatly appreciated!)... I get on here everyday, and everyday I find a another person with an inspiring story, it just amazes me. I can't help but to think, "will that be me a few months from now?" (I hope so!)

I've been preplanning and hopefully I'll be done with my classes and consults by March or April of 2011... so It would be GREAT if I could get a surgery date before my birthday on June 25th. That would be the BEST gift EVER ... and I could start my "new life" from that point on! ... At 25 I hope to be a whole new me...

I appreciate EVERYONE's feedback and comments on my blogs and forum posts (it helps!)... I'm pretty sure I won't go with the Band, even though that was my first and initial choice. After researching what I could on the VSG, RNY, and the Band... I think that the Band wouldn't be a good fit for me... So, when I go in to speak with my surgeon, I'll discuss the VSG (even though I'm sure he doesn't do this surgery...) and also the RNY ... more than likely the latter will be the surgery that I go with. I'm still scared of it, even though I think I've researched it out the @ss! ... Maybe it's just because I've never had any real surgeries before where I've been knocked out under anesthesia and that scares me...

I also think about the fact that my insides will be all reorganized.... and as I sit here and type this.... I stop and poke at my stomach ... LoL.. I know I'm crazy but I'm whole right now... but after surgery I know it won't feel the same... and that partially scares me, but then again ... I don't want to be the same ... I'm ready for CHANGE!

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