BIG FAT LIAR

Feb 24, 2010

I believe it was my last blog entry where I wrote something to the effect of "oh, this liquid diet thing shouldn't be too tough".

I was lying, my friends! This liquid diet is SO HARD! I don't know why this is so hard for me.  I won't bore you all with my life story, but the last few years have been extremely challenging by anyone's standards. People are always saying to me that they admire my "strength". I appreciate that sentiment, but what exactly does it mean? 

For example, two years ago, my daughter was very ill and was in and out of the hospital for a few months. My Dad was diagnosed with cancer at the same time. I temporarily moved home to take care of him and take him for his chemo treatments 3 days a week in a town 2 hours away while dealing with my daughter who had just had a naso-gastric tube placed and was attached to a portable machine for round the clock feedings. Yes, it was a really hard time, but what option did I have? I just put one foot in front of the other and just did what needed to be done at that moment.

This is different. In some ways this is harder. If I had to do this diet for the health of my kids or my husband, I would do it no questions asked. Somehow, I have a hard time doing this for ME. What the heck is wrong with me? Why am I so weak?

Ugh, enough whining for the day. Hopefully I will be back and in much better spirits soon.

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