The Love of My Life

Dec 30, 2009

Good afternoon OH Fam. My boyfriend & I had our 1st couple therapy session yesterday. Well I guess we r still 2gether ugh. After the session I was crying my eyes out I think I cried 4 abt 3 hours after the session was over lol pitiful I know. We have been friends for well over 3 years & decided 2 make the transition 2 b a couple a few months ago. Now the issue that I'm having is my weight. When I met him I was way smaller than I am. & I feel so uncomfortable around him now. He tells me my weight does not bother him & I believe him but the weight bothers me & its starting 2 b a problem 4 me. I have never suffered from low self esteem but I feel like now I am. This weight is such a problem 4 me not just health wise. It's like i stay on edge w/him I feel like he don't love me or care about me the way he should because I'm not smaller. & I'm sure it's all n my head but this weight is making me crazy UGH!!!!!!  Now OH Fam I can keep it real w/yall. This is the 1st I have ever spoke these words out of my mouth. I can't part my lips 2 say this 2 anyone. I feel a lot more relief that I was able 2 get this off my chest.

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