Long time!!

Oct 27, 2013

Hi everyone... If anyone reads this ;) I had my surgery on September 25th of 2013. To date I've lost about 4 inches around and 18 pounds post op.. From my highest weight I've lost 35 lbs. I'm happy over all.. even when i hit an almost 2 week stall and a mental game of wait gain, guilt and madness. In a nutshell. I really have to stop weighing myself everyday... numerous times daily too.. I know, I know... It is morale suicide but i swear the damned scale phantom beckons me.. really. In all seriousness i have to quit obsessing. I told myself constantly id be ok with weekly or monthly weigh ins.. I didn't have a scale at the time. It truly was attainable to not make myself a slave to what has now become my nemesis. But alas.. me mum bought one and thus the cycle began..wahhhh haaa... O.K.. done whining.. I am. I could still be in the same old place.. Not realizing that I have some issues with food that I was seriously unaware of. It was a harsh reality to face. I have to work on this new stuff and this crazy head hunger that i seem to be feeling. But i embarked on this to become healthy, that means i need to deal with this new found stuff. So be it. I am still happy and im going to work me tail off to be a success and change a lot.

Whew.. I feel better to have unloaded a bit. I feel a bit alone in this journey. I have a YouTube channel that helps. This helps too.

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