Dawn S.
Am I a Size 6 Yet?
Dec 02, 2009
On December 1, 2005 - my first words after waking up from surgery were: "Am I a size 6 yet?"On December 3, 2009 - my answer is "No". I am a size 4...ok, SOMETIMES a 6....but mostly a 4. While I was in my weight loss phase, it didn't happen fast enough for me.....at 6 months out, I had lost 75 lbs. At 6 months out, most of my peers had lost 100+ lbs. I steadily lost weight for a little over 2 years. While I lost weight slowly....I DID lose it. All of my fretting and worrying that I "broke the surgery" was for naught....and it didn't burn ONE CALORIE!
My weight on Surgery Day was 305 - my doctor thought I "might get down to 170"....I am 143. I have no idea how much excess skin I have and at the moment, have no desire for plastic surgery. My body looks like a deflated balloon when I'm naked....then again, I'm 42 - my naked in public days are over anyway. Any man who is gonna be naked with me - ain't gonna be an Abercrombie model....I am healthy and I feel great and I look amazing in clothes.
Anywhoooodle. Even after 4 years, when folding my jeans - my eyes and brain tell me that there is NO WAY I am gonna fit in those tiny pants. Every day - I am surprised by what I see in the mirror. Friends who didn't know me pre surgery - call me "wee"...my son's friends call me "Pocket Mommy" (cause they say they could carry me around in their pockets...weirdos)
Life has had it's ups and downs - lots of personal fabulousness and lots of personal craptastic-ness - however, I KNOW that life has ups and downs whether I am fat or thin. The weird thing is not having my "fat blanket" to cover myself...I have nothing to hide behind anymore! I'm still getting used to it...being "uncovered" and a an odd sense of physical vulnerability as well.
If you are researching the Duodenal Switch - I can recommend that you read read read - and please, think very carefully before taking the step. No matter WHAT surgery you decide on, make sure you surround yourself with supportive and positive people...they can help to buffer you from judgmental asses and even from yourself. :-)
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About Me
Oxon Hill, MD
Location
23.3
BMI
Surgery
12/01/2005
Surgery Date
Dec 13, 2004
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