One Week to Go

Feb 08, 2011

Whew.  My surgery is scheduled for next Thursday the 17th.  Saying that I am excited is an understatement.  I am in better control of my thoughts now.  Last week I was hungry all the time and fearful that I would not be successful even with surgery.  Okay I had a nightmare that started that thought.  I woke up sweating and anxious.  Right now every thing curry...like we say in the islands.  It means things are good.

I am focused on weight loss.  Thank God for his help.  I did a lot of praying over the weekend trying to wrap my mind around my current situation. It helped tremendously and I am grateful.

I was watching Heavy on A&E on Monday and I realized that I need to acknowledge what contributed to me getting to this point.  Weighing 288 pounds when you are only 5'4'' is a lot.  I crossed the 200 pound mark in 2003 and have been headed upward since then.
 Contributing factors:
 - Divorce/bankruptcy in 2000
 - 3 knee surgeries in 2 yrs (2002-2004)
 - Depression
 - Chronic joint pain since 2002
 - I love food (sweets and baked goods)

The results are obvious. At my worst I was 306 pounds. Ten of those pounds were added from steroid use.  My blood pressure is starting to fluctuate and my knees can barely support me. I was referred to Bariatrics by my orthopedic surgeon.  No knee replacement with me being over 200 pounds

I have tried every diet except for Jenny Craig and nutrasystem

I want/need to have a VSG for my general well being.  One day I woke up and did not recognize the person I have become.  I am lethargic.  I no long enjoy socializing. Given a choice I would stay on the couch with Cheetos and coffee (dont judge me LOL).  Well the springs in my couch are broken. Thanks to my rump...God rest its sole. 


Why am I having Surgery:
 -  My knees are in need of repair
 - I need to stop having back spasms
 - my badly sprained ankle, is taking forever to heal
 - Ok lets just say ALL the joints in my lower extremities HURT daily
 - I miss my mobility
 - My weight related depression is a burden
 - Sex is good, it used to be GREAT
 - avoid type 2 diabetes
 - lower my blood pressure
- I want to live a long, healthy, mobile life

I am ready for a do-over.  Having this surgery will give me a HUGE assist.  I have tried several times in the last 5 years to visualize losing 100+ pounds.  The though overwhelms me, which depresses mewhich makes me eat....

No More!!!

Fay

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