Aprils Fool's Day

Apr 01, 2013

   I still think of My Parents Pranks- dropping us off for school on a teacher Holiday, Dishing out Cat food for dinner ( turned out we ate out). Dad was always playing some Joke. Kind of missing him a lot lately. Mom is still here and can support me . This April Fools just reminds me I have yet to do my taxes and am trying not to think of the up coming surgery date planned. I know the surgery is needed and yet I know enough as a RN to be worried about the other details my Doctor is playing down right now. How he told me it is a level up from what the GYN stated and then tells me not to worry it isn't cancer yet . I saw the lab results on the test stating cancerous changes , not precancerous. My head is swimming with way too many things and I think the Fear is a big STRESSOR that causes me to eat stuff I shouldn't. Hormones make me feel pregnant then the food gets thrown up ( yes it has happened after 3 years I can throw up small amounts ) like I was pregnant.

     SLEEP - is what I need and as Medications are not responding the same way as pre-surgery ME , it is so Hard to find relief. Will the post op pain be as bad as the knee surgery and the abdominal pain I have now? Well my Bed calls . I only hope it is going to  relax me .

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