Not a great day

Feb 10, 2013

Grumpy and hungry. (And I'm not even adhering to the surgeon's dietary strictures yet, oh geez.) After a personal disappointment this morning, I spite-ate a big serving of frozen yogurt (with candy toppings and whipped cream in addition to the shame and guilt.) 

I don't feel good about this. I've been cranky the last couple days, and I've been cranky because I'm hungry. This seems cyclical; I'll go a few days or a week without much appetite, perfectly content with what I'm eating and with life in general. Then, wham, the angry-hungries hit and I get all lupine and mean and insatiable. 

Oh well. Appointment with the internist tomorrow. I'm weirdly worried that he'll disapprove of the whole bariatric surgery thing; no idea where that specific anxiety came from but I guess we'll see. 

Just occurred to me: maybe I'm feeling worn out, crabby, and thin-skinned because I haven't been using the CPAP. Still waiting for that new mask to arrive and haven't been wearing the horrible old nostril pillows in the meantime. That might have a lot to do with it, actually. Tomorrow I should call the medical supply place to see why it hasn't arrived yet. Ugh, and I have a pile of bills (most of them related to doctors' appointments and bariatric stuff) that need to be wrangled tomorrow. Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.

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