1 year ago today!

May 05, 2010

Today is my Surgiversay! It's been one year ago today. What a year it has been!

My scale this morning said 255 (from 398 a year ago). I have tried not to be obsessed with the numbers.
I had a really really long stall and I thought I had broken my pouch or that it just had a short life. I was really bummed for awhile. I had to take a close honest look at my behavior though. We get free soda all day long at work...I was drinking diet soda. I gave up my gym membership to try to save $$. I half assed guessed at my protein intake and did not always remember to take my vitamins. I got depressed. Started smoking again. Sampled fast food (not a good idea!). Broke up with my girlfriend and have no idea how to date ( I'm Bi with a heavy lean towards Gay). Then a person my age in my community died very suddenly and It kinda shook me awake. I am pressing 40 and was falling back into the trap of not taking care of myself. I felt like the window of opportunity of using my pouch as a tool was quickly closing. So I had a mini internal freak out and then I woke up!! So recently I started my vitamins, I drink at least 96oz of liquid a day, 1 protein shake a day, NO SODA, stopped smoking(mostly), and the scale is starting to move again. So it's not broken...I just have to play by the rules. They are there for a reason. I hate rules!! Seriously though...if you happen to be reading this and you are early out. Follow them and don't compare your loss to others it's a masochistic exercise.

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