Janet F.
2nd dietician visit 11/30/09
Nov 30, 2009
Met with Elizabeth today. I feel I have come a long way in a month. She was proud I was down a pound especially over Thanksgiving. Anyway, I didn't gain. We talked about my good decisions and my not so good ones. We talked about why I chose the things I ate. We also talked about the emotional side of eating. She asked me to think why I really want to have this surgery and to come up with some goals. Part of it is I hide my emotions with food and I keep from getting too close to people when I'm overweight. I fell I'm less likely to get hurt emotionally when I'm fat. That's an oxymoron if I ever heard one. It's harder to put emotions into words than it is to think about them in my head. I have never really finished anything to the end. I do things just enough to know I can do it but never really follow thru completely. I can partly play the piano but never followed thru w/ lessons. I can play softball and volleyball but was not good enough to play in college. I got my Associates Degree but had no desire to complete my BS. With dieting, I could lose weight to a certain point but could not get to goal or maintain my weightloss. I am so afraid of failure I would quit before I would finish. After starting to lose weight so many times, I'd sabotage myself before I would even get started. I see surgery as a great tool to help me get to my goal but I need to understand there's no quitting after surgery. It's got to be an every day mentality. I am going to blog more to help me understand my emotional side of eating. Sometimes it's really hard to face that part of weight loss. I am going to finish this and not be scared to feel. I love the encouragement from OH. I actually don't feel so alone anymore.
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Sachse, TX
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37.4
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Surgery
05/10/2010
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Dec 10, 2008
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