13 weeks

Jun 17, 2010

So.... 13wks out and I'm feeling awesome! Down 63 lbs and I am finally starting to see changes in myself when I look in the mirror. It takes a while for your mind to catch up with your body. I work with a lot of different photographers doing makeup for their subjects that they're shooting. I am fortunate enough to be good friends with one in particular and was really excited when she offered to do a photo shoot of me. It will be my real 3 month photos and I'm so excited to see what they look like but not sure when she will have them back to me. It felt so good to feel confidence as I stood in front of this camera literally posing. There were people watching even and I didn't care!! This makes me feel like myself again. I used to take photos walking down main street back in the day when I dabbled in modeling and it never phased me that people were watching me because it felt so natural, like I was in my element. For the last 10 years or more I have kind of stayed away from the camera because I just wasn't happy with the way I looked. Anyway, on to the diet part of things...  I am getting bored of the protein and sometimes it just seems easier to drink a protein shake then eat another piece of chicken or fish.  I also crave crunchy things...salty or sweet doesn't matter as long as it's crunchy. Hopefully that will break soon. I feel very fortunate that I haven't struggled during this process and have  yet to stall....knock on wood...but feel a little bad for people that are discouraged. I really did this more for health than vanity. I love to play volleyball and softball and my body hurt when I was 63 lbs heavier!! It sucked to walk up the stairs in my house to put my kids to bed. Now that I have dropped a large amount of weight my body doesn't hurt anymore and I have more energy and spring in my step. If I didn't lose another pound, I would be fine. I don't mind being a curvy girl. It just feels so good to be healthy. I take that back, I have a lot of cute clothes in smaller sizes so I would be a little dissapointed if I couldn't get into those at some point but you get my point. I'm still a size 16 and everyone says OMG you're soooo skinny....say what? Far from skinny but much smaller than I was. I love my sleeve and I love my OH peeps! It's so great to have knowledgable, professional people that have been through the same rough times as well that led them to have WLS. Thank you for all being there for me and encouraging me along the way. Love to all, Jules

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