ladyday
Confessional
May 21, 2012
Forgive me OH'ers for I have sinned. I am 3 months post op VSG. At first, I was crazed by the lifestyle change and the exercise. I ate, breathed and slept it. All I looked for was ways to get more protein in. What other exercise besides walking I could do. I was driven and the weight was fleeing like scared villagers. Then the month of May came and all of a sudden I realized that I have been drinking protein shakes for what it seems like forever! I have one for breakfast and lunch and then I eat dinner. I rarely snack and when I do, it is usually some fruit. I just can't do the greek ick right now. I've had my fill. So what is my confession??? I ate!!! Yes, the crap that we aren't supposed to eat. Yeah I ate it. Ok, so it wasn't Thanksgiving sized protions. In fact I realize that my 6 year old actually eats larger portions that me, but who cares I ate. I got the kids and myself happy meals and yes they finished all 4 nuggetts, fries, apples and juice. I barely got thru the nuggets and then had to give the rest to the dog. I ate white castle and I can only get one burger in. I ordered a 6 inch subway Chicken sandwich and it took me a full day to eat it. I was determined to get it in. I won't do that again. I have had chips and cookies.Not as satisfying as I expected. I had ice cream and realized I like sherbert better. I haven't had pasta. Really don't want it. Did have pizza and wondered if I should call 911 for the pain. Soda isn't my friend. The list goes on and on. This past Friday is the last time I sinned. I think that I had to have a post op food funeral. The crazy thing is my weight went up and down like for a pound or three for the past few weeks. In the end,I didn't gain and I did get back to "normal" this weekend. I went out and bought a bike. I have been doing 3 miles every morning. This morning was chilly, I will go in the afternoon when it warms up. So, I sit here this morning sipping my water wondering what flavor of protein do I want to start the day off with. I feel guilty that I wasted 3 weeks of potential weight loss but the satisfying feeling that I am back to using this tool for good instead of evil outweighs anything that I did!
