Post 2

Apr 20, 2011

I am one week into my physician supervised weight loss program. I decided to go through the Medical Weight Loss Clinic in Lansing. They have a physician on site that I can meet with and it is NOWHERE NEAR the cost of the Sparrow bariatric center. Ive also been through a weight loss program with MWLC before so I didnt have to pay any of the starting costs.

At first I started to go back and forth with the idea of WLS, mostly because the thought of having to wait about 7 months before I can have it done makes me nausous. Once you make the decision to change your life, you dont want to wait any longer to make that change for the rest of your life. I know im being impatient, but it seems so far away!

I was recently in an auto accident. I walked away with a very sore back, neck, shoulders and few small cuts on my hands. But they way the accident happened, I probably shouldnt be here today. I totaled my car, but luckily there is a state auction this Saturday near my house, so hopefully I can get something reasonably priced.

I also wanted to express how sad I felt today going into a store. I went into Dress Barn to find a dress for a wedding that Im going to in May. They have a "Womens (plus)" and "Misses(regular)". I went to the plus size section and couldnt find anything that I liked. I looked on the misses side and they literally had 4 times the amount of designs. I couldnt believe it! I kept thinking "gosh they should make that in plus size.......Id definitly buy that if they had it in plus size". Its as though plus size women should just wear what they can fit in and deal with it. No selection. Needless to say, I miss the days that I really enjoyed shopping. I HATE it now. Its emotional, depressing, exhausting and expensive. Plus size never goes on sale lol.
Its more then a chore. At least the end of my chore, like vacuuming I can enjoy the cleanliness and organization. Even if I find something to buy, Im settling because theres nothing to choose from so I just like "eh that'll do...plus I just want to go home". Hope this will all change after surgery!

5 months and 3 weeks left of my weight loss plan!

5'9, 274lbs.

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