linabear2010
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Feb 17, 2010
This past weekend I was looking for baby pics of my oldest girl for a Yearbook dedication for her senior year, so I pulled out boxes and boxes of photos....as expected I began to look at all the photos, reminiscing. But while looking though the piles of pics, it suddenly dawned on me, most of the pics I had of my self were face pics. from my chest up. I had the same smile, if you could even call it that, like a half smile. Like "I'm not really liking this, right now, but I'll smile cuz you're supposed to smile" kinda thing. And then I realized that the few I had of my body were candid shots taken "against my will"....well no one really tied me up and forced me to take pics, but what I mean is I wasn't "ready". That sux. Cuz at least when you know you're gonna be in a pic, you can hide behind someone, fade into the background, or grab a pillow, jacket, something to strategically place on your stomach to look "thinner", no not these....These were me in my glory, big lovely lady lumps in all the wrong places, side views w/ double and triple chins. Very uncomfortable to look at. And I thought I was bomb, thought what I had on was so "trendy", nothing trendy about big floral prints, moo-moo like fabrics. Needless to say, I gathered all the pics and put em away where they belonged, in my dark closet on the highest shelf, out of reach, out of sight. I can't wait to be able to take a photo and actually feel good about how I came out. I'm tired of doing the "my space" shots where I lift my camera way above me and pose looking up so I can look thinner than I really am or have my child climb onto the couch and take a picture of me downward for the same effect. I wanna be able to strike a pose, whenever wherever, not hide and actually smile cuz I wanna, not smile cuz I have to. By the way, I did find great baby pics of my soon to be graduate.....all good!
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Murrieta, CA
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10/29/2010
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Feb 01, 2010
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