Frustrated.....may be a motivation!!!!

Dec 31, 2009

Sooo.......some friends on here have asked me where I am in my weight loss journey.....NOWHERE!!!! I mean I have actually made the decision that I definately want the gastric bypass surgery and would love to start the journey. At first, my husband and I decided we wanted to have a baby first (dont ask me why I thought that was smart) but then we thought it would be best if I was healthier and more in shape to carry a baby. Now let me tell you.....my hubby and I have been wanting a baby for about 4 or 5 years now. I have PCOS and well baby making is not one of our stregnths right now. I am most likely going to need fertility treatment. Someone in my family just found out she was pregnant, another girl at work found she was pregnant anddd a friend from school found out she is having triplets and a cousin of mine is trying to get pregnant!!! SERIOUSLY????!!!! I just want to SCREAMMMMMMMMMMM I asked my husband.....is God trying to torture me or what?! Well......perhaps he is telling me to get off my oompa loompa non-motivated arse and get the WLS journey started so that I can hold a baby in my arms that is allll mine!!! So my New Years Resolution is to get started on the WLS journey full swing and make it a priority! It is time for me to make myself a priority!!!! So as of Monday (my next day off) I am going to call and make an appointment with  my primary and start the mandatory dieting phase needed for insurance purposes. I will be that much more close to my goal of sending off the request for surgery. I have lost the last ten years to obesity. I dont take pictures, go out to clubs or bars, shop much or have girls night out because of MY LARD ASS!!!!!!! The sad thing is I have such an outgoing personality and LOVVVEE to go out, shop and meet new people! Sooo its time for me to make a change and a wonderful change for myself it will be!! Thanks for reading my rant. I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year! Thanks to all who have gone through WLS and have served as role models for me and soo many others!

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