MissCricket
I was a teenage goth queen.
Sep 15, 2011
Maybe if I look like a total freak, no one will focus on my weight! And it was true... the comments and ridicule I suffered as a teenager were due to the torn panty hose on my arms, my white face paint and black lipstick designs smeared all over my face. I was moved again to an even SMALLER village (one of the smallest in Nova Scotia) and I definitely got some attention... although not the best kind. When I was 15, I met the (then) love of my life. We were a real us-against-the-world kind of couple. I weighed around 190lbs at that point, and due to my obesity was still very insecure. I managed throughout high school, though it was tough at times.Unfortunately, my behavior became erratic (as teenagers sometimes do!) and I became quite combative with my mother to the point that we felt our relationship could not continue as long as I lived with her. I moved out and away in the summer before I was to start grade 12. This meant moving away from my family, my high school sweetheart, and moving away from the healthy cooking my Mom provided.
When I barely graduated High School a year later, I weighed significantly less and was totally miserable, so I decided to try for a life with my father who lived in Halifax. My father was a man that harbored incredible guilt for the failed relationship between him and my mother and therefor indulged my every whim and desire. After my body going in to starvation mode, I was ravenous and ate everything I had wanted but couldn't afford over the past year. About 6 months later, I realized I couldn't fit into the pants I had worn in high school. An additional 6 months after that, I stepped on the scale to discover I had gained over 100 lbs. in 1 year. I was 19 years old and I weighed 300 lbs.
To be continued......
