I was approved.

Dec 30, 2014

I think my greatest wprry was not getting approved. I think I was so obsessed with the insurance issues that it was all I focused on. I was ready to be rejected. I prepared for the worst. I was ready to not get approved. I wasn't ready to have a date so soon! I am super happy, and I have been smiling all day. 

But on the flip side, I'm terrified. Am I going to make it? Will I fail? Will I learn to finally love me? Will I lose the parts of me I do like with weight loss? I know it seems vain but I've been in this body so long, I know I have to mentally toughen up for this ride. My life is changing and I want to be ready. 

I know this is rambling, but I just want to get the worries off my mind. What will my family say? Should I even tell them or keep it to myself? I don't know the answers, all I know is that I'm too young to feel so limited in my own skin. I've hid behind my weight for so long that I don't think I want attention, I just want to feel good about me. But I can hear the criticisms now. Oh well. I'm not going to worry about them, for once, I am going to worry about me and my health and my journey that I will be embarking on in 27 days. Wow, 27 days....I can't wait :)

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