Finding what is inside

Aug 15, 2010

I've been busy since yesterday.

After I beat myself up in my blog about missing the OWLS meeting, I sent another e-mail - a much more coherent one. My BB is great for FB but I don't have the patience for an email, esp. if it does not go through. Argh! Wasted typing. Anyway, I hope I get an answer back.

Yesterday I accomplished my household special project goal for the household - I emptied and scrubbed down the old Litter Maid cat box. It was due for a good cleaning when I got back from PA - at that point the boys (DH and SS) had not cleaned it the whole time I was away, so it was pretty grotty. Then the day after I got back, Clay brought Lil into the house after feeding her outside while I was gone. Set up a temp 2nd cat box (non-self cleaning) but if it got too full, Lil would use the Litter Maid. Well... Lil's full name is Lil Stinker. Named because she does nopt always cover her poo well and it's, um, fragrant. So mix not covering well with the auto cat box and you get an ever worse mess. Clay got another auto cleaning box and then it took a while to set it up. So once I had the old box clean, we'd be up to 3 potties for 2 cats.

OK, I know I went on about that in way too much detail, but at my weight it is so hard to get stuff done. I still get out of breath when I bend over due to my fat squishing my lungs, but not as badly as 3 years ago. But it's not easy. Anyway, between gardening, watering and cat box scrubbing, I had a pretty busy day, esp. as hot as it was (101), and was proud of myself for getting stuff done.

It was hot enough in the house by 5:30 to motivate me to go swim even though I was tired. There weren't many people at the health club, and most that were there were at the outdoor pool. So I start my laps, one other guy swimming. After about 15 min or so, the guy had left and a bunch of girls (6-7) came in from the outdoor pool and started making a bunch of noise and were swimming back and forth across my lane right in front of me. I guess I was tired from all the work and just wanted a peaceful workout. After about 5 laps worth of this nonsense, I stop near them and ask them please not to do that. I pointed out that while it is free swim time in the lap pool, they are not to be in there if they are under 16 without a parent (they were probably ages 7-12) , since there is no lifeguard indoors. I said that I was more than willing to share the pool, but they should not interferre with lap swimmers. So they ask some teenager in the hot tub to be their adult and she agrees. Not the way it is supposed to work, but what the heck, I figure.

After about 5 more laps I have a kid swimming in my lane. 2 laps and he is still there and the girls have increased in number to about 10. Shrieking, which in the indoor pool reverbs something awful. I just lose it and order them out of the pool and say I'm calling the lifeguard to kick them out. They leave. Whew. The kid that was in my lane was actually swimming laps - he moved over to a lane that was now free and his Mom was there too. I have absolutely no problem with people who follow the rules, and I appologized for yelling at him as well.

Anyway, the point is that I was so pissed off that I just kept swimming to burn off the anger. I had been doing 40 and had cut back to 30-40 when I restarted the Medifast until I got used to it again. Well, I had intended on 40, but I swam 50.

I was so sore last night! I took my old friend Ibuprophen and went to bed early.

So this morning I was reflecting on yesterday. I did try very hard to be active and get stuff done, but is it worth it if I turn into a bitch (or Pool Nazi)? Is that what is inside me?

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