Another Day & A New Begining

Aug 22, 2010

So, last night we went to the drive-ins and I actually had some tortilla chips with cheddar cheese, thinking about it then I didn't think it was too aweful for me...But waking up today I realized...I screwed up and "cheated"! I feel horrible about it, I wasn't even thinking clearly!

So, I decided to put a rubber band on my wrist...anytime food comes into my mind and I am not hungry I am going to snap my rubber band, kinda like a wake up you idiot you are not going to ruin this "diet" you need to change your brain patterns! And that is what I shall do.

It is harder then I thought, I guess part of me was like this is the easy way out, I will have surgery and just automatically loose the weight and be skinnier and whatnot...Well, I was seriously mistaken, this is no way the easy way out...first you have a surgery which is major, then you have the emotional part to over come, the mental part to over come, it is a serious life change and it is hard!

It will take time and I realize this...I just am ready to be a better me, I did 10 minutes on the treadmill yesterday, sweating like a pig and I felt wonderful afterwards...like I accomplished something grand! BTW That was the first time I had ever been on a treadmill. Which for the first time made me proud that I pushed and did 10 mins. And another thing...10 mins on the treadmill is NOTHING compared to 10 minutes of plain walking.

Plain walking is so much more lower impact then the treadmill atleast in my opinion. But I now have decided to do the treadmill 15-30 minutes each day and then the days the pool is open swimming for 90 minutes minimum, since my son goes and I have to take breaks to help him and such.

This is a new day, my eyes are open, my brain will not overcome me today! I am in control of my brain as well as my body!

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