I want to lose 200 pounds...that will put me at 162..But i really want to be between 150-160 LBS..

This year has been pretty bad for me...Im at my heavest 362...I just recently lost my SSi case..this was my 3rd appeal..so i have to appeal again...I put all of my hopes into finally getting ssi now i dont have any backup plans..and life just sucks...I wanted to have weight loss surgery..but loseing my case it doesnt seem like im going to get it anytime soon..in California you have to be on SSi to get medi-cal..and medi-cal pays for surgery..not to mention having ssi will help alot of my other problems too....being denied again has me even more depressed...i dont know whats going to happen..life sucks...Im going to attempt to lose weight on my own...nothing beats a failure but a Try....i guess only time will tell..