almost week 63

Aug 19, 2012

Good Morning!!!  Its a beautiful day. The evenings and mornings are cooler, and the air is so sweet. Its starting to stay dark longer in the mornings though.   I love summer, but I also love this time of year.  I am weighing in at 202.2 today, with TT Flow right around the corner.  My children are ready for school to start, and I am wondering what I'm gonna do with myself!  I am putting my resume out there and preparing for interviews.  Searching for employment is no treat, but I am ready to get back into the swing of things. 

Yesterday and this morning have been strange to say the least.  I have been eating well, exercising well, and yesterday I was shopping with my children for school stuff, when I started heaving!! I could feel it coming , but it was really odd, and my body would not stop.  I just heaved and foamed and heaved and ran to the bathroom.  I was bewildered and alarmed!  I had to grab a bucket from off the shelf because the bathroom was so far and I wouldn't have made it.  I wasn't embarrassed - I was too alarmed to be!  What in the world?  I left the kids in the capable hands of their eldest sibling, and they eventually found me at the bathrooms.  It was terrible, and nothing remarkable or informative was...revealed.  I bought some SF soda to help settle my stomach, but had another episode in the parking lot of another store.  Tears streaming down my face, my stomach (& behind) clenching, ugh!  It was a mess.  I still don't understand it.  I went home and drank soda and later had soda crackers.  I was literally shaking like a leaf, and was scared something was seriously wrong with me.  I still feel queasy and off, and am afraid to eat more than crackers.

Shrinking is happening again.  Initially it was my upper arms that were batwings, now it is extending down to my forearms, and cant be covered by the short sleeve shrugs & jackets....good thing the season for sweaters and long sleeves is close at hand.  The flying squirrel saga continues!!  I will probably have surgery to take care of these things in a couple of years or sooner, depending on how much moolah I can save.  If Im going back under, Im gonna go for the gold!!  No implants, but if they can take some of the other fat and inflate the ta-tas and take care of the booty bone pain, dooooooo it!!!

8/28/2012: almost week 64, weight is.....drumrooolllll.........200.2!   

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