2 years 9 months

Mar 07, 2014

This past week was far more of a challenge for me!  TOM, Exams, and viruses, yuck! Needless to say I haven't felt like doing anything, and only exercised 3 times.  I am glad the weather is changing, that I am feeling better in one way, but more sad in others. 

Weight is up, but that's no surprise with bloating and limited exercise and being sick - 182.6 when I checked earlier.  I know that this is not real, but it still IS, so I am able to deal with that. And its not all just because of those things either, I have been far less diligent since the end of February than I normally am.  That is what it is right now, and I forgive myself, and I acknowledge my mistakes and cant deny that it was a comfort to do some of them!! Ive had chips, which I expected, but I also had oreos and pizza too. 

Am I depressed?  Maybe.  Theres a lot going on inside, especially since my marriage is pretty much over.  But I am still grateful for what I have been able to do, and I understand and firmly believe that this will pass.  It will, and it must, and I will help it on its way out by holding the door open.    I cant get bogged down mentally and emotionally, because I know that translates to me trying to compensate through eating.  Sigh. Its a process, and I am in this for the long haul, still relieved and grateful for making the VSG choice.

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