8 month anniversary

Jul 28, 2011

Today is my 8 month anniversary and I weigh 201.3!!!!  So close to being in onederland.  I lost 4 pounds this month so the weight loss has definitely slowed down.  I'm okay with that.  I haven't really exercised this month so I know that is part of it.  I kind of had a rough month food wise, I ate a lot of crap and tested my limits with sugar.  I feel as though with normal food I definitely feel fuller quicker and know when to stop but with candy I can eat more and I pay for it later with an upset stomach or throwing up or diarhea.  Overall I am very happy with what has happened.  I still see myself as being the 300+ lb woman that I was.  Sure my clothes are different but I never really analyzed my body before the surgery and now I look at it and really have nothing to compare it to.  I just see the extra skin and wonder how did it look before was it fuller??  I need to go to a therapist.  Anyways it is hard to believe that it's been 8 months and I've lost 104 pounds!!!!  In some clothes I am wearing an XL in tops and 1x.  In pants I'm not really sure, I've been wearing the clothes I've bought a while back which were either an xxl or 16w.  Or XL Yoga pants which are strechy.  I am very paranoid about what I look like, I'm afraid I'm a fat person trying to look skinny in the clothes I buy.  I have no one really to ask that I feel comfortable would give me an honest answer except for my mom and she doesn't live near me.  Russell just says yeah it looks good.  Not much else.  
 

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