TammyJean315
Two down...
Feb 02, 2014
This journey will and is going to be a big deal to three people in my life who mean the most to me and I have dragged my feet for almost year in telling them this is what I am doing.
I finally talked to the two people who will be a huge part of this journey with me. The two people I will have to count on the most to help understand that this is not just a "diet" and I cannot come back from this once I do it.
I talked to SO on friday about my endoscopy appointment next Friday morning andwhat it means to have it. Then this morning I have finally shared my choice to do this with my sister. My SO is being very supportive and wants whatever makes me happy. Even though it is not his favorite idea. And I can do this under the stipulation that he is here for the whole journey. My SO is going to school at ASU. He will let have this surgery as long as he can be here to help me through the recovery and time I need to "adjust" periods.
My sister is one of those aloof kind of girls. We are like night any day next to each other. She is very intorvert and i am very much and extrovert. SO i amnot really sure how she is feeling about this. I know she will get "annoyed" at my new lifestle and things I will have to do. As any sibling would, but I am just hoping that she will be able to deal and heal with her emotions as much I will have to.
It is no longer just a "thought" or as I have been telling myself a "Dream" anymore. I am really moving forward with this. I am scared and happy. I look at all these wonderful people on here and I just see hope and happiness. I see people who have gone through and made it. Who live "normal" lives without the control of food. Yet that little monster in the back of my head called "doubt" loves to hang out and stab my happy thoughts."what if my life is not changed?...what if I never have that "normal" life I am so deperatly grasping for?...what if no one will understand and I am alone?"
That is where I am hoping for the third person in my life to come through for me. My Mom.
I have not told her yet and she is the most imporant one...
