End of Summer

Aug 28, 2012

Today is the 29th of August.  The last time I wrote I was 8lbs away from reaching the 50lb mark my surgeon requires me to reach befrore he will do the surgery.

All the pain I was in due to the IBS... my PCP started me on Cymbalta.  It worked crazy great for the pain... Only thing is... is now that I'm not in pain anymore I've regained my appetite.  The last time I stepped on the scale I was up 6lbs... and I know it's got to be more than that by now.  I have to find the motivation to start losing again.  I think I WILL set up a session with Missy this week.  I need to take care of myself.  It's so hard when it's so hard to move and so easy to eat.  Lee is struggling with his own demons.  

I had an infestation of pantry moths.  My sister came over this past week and we cleared out the pantry and dumped EVERYTHING. Even the new stuff I had just bought the night before.  It wasn't much but it was enough that I was feeling it when we were done cleaning.  I'm still finding cocoons all over and a stray moth or two... or 6.  I bought some traps and they work okay... but I think only for the males.  It has this little spongy thing that gives off the female mating hormone... the males fly into the trap and get stuck to the sticky stuff inside.  Moths check in but they don't check out. LOL

I guess I could look at this on the bright side.  It's like we are starting over fresh.  My sweet tooth is such a thorn in my side.  

We finally got the pool clean.  99%.  There are still a few leaves left and some dust.  We'll get that up this weekend and have a week or two with the pool and then throw the winter chemicals in and the cover on before the leaves start to fall.  Next year we won't have all of this to go through.  The Dolby family is coming for a visit.  I'm kind of excited.  I haven't seen Sarah in a few years and I just love her.  She's so awesome I just know we'd be best friends if we lived closer.  Even the girls are looking forward to the visit.  Yet another reason why I want to have this freakin surgery NOW.  I need to have it done to give me a good 10 months to drop a few hundred pounds.

I did it to myself with those freakin caramel frappe's from McD's.  They are my weakness.  Once the weather starts to cool down I'm gonna try walking... just a little at a time.  Maybe by November I'll be able to walk the whole street.  By the Spring... maybe around the block!  The less I weigh the better I'll be able to move, right?

My niece Courtney... we bonded over the summer when Lee went to England for vacation.  She stayed with me nearly every night.  I love her so much but she's got this Ian character under her skin and can't shake it.  He's just a skater boi who has no ambition and no respect for her family.  He's laid his hands on her more than once... Maybe not like super bad..... not intentionally trying to hurt her but had done so just by the way he acts.  Threw keys at her when he was mad cuz she was leaving and they hit her in the face and gave her a black eye.  She had some bruises on her arm and I"m sure it's from him grabbing her.  Just little things now but can't help but see them escalating into more serious DV issues in the future.  We can't let him suck her back in.  

Anway... It's 2:30am.  I wanted to get up early... 6am.  Not sure if that's going to happen or not.  We'll see. I'd like to color my hair this weekend.  Getting lots of grays.  Uggh... 46 here I come. 

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