Patricia Green
Getting it done!
Jul 18, 2013
I haven't been here for a while. There's a reason for it. I've been busy getting it done. I've been going to the group support meetings and Nutrition classes.
I met the dietician last week and got back with my patient Advocate to discuss where I am currently. So far to date, I have had 2 weigh-ins, gone to both of my Nutrition classes, met the dietician and done my psychological exam. Yesterday, I took a day off work because I was scheduled to have all of my tests completed. So I had my GI Series completed, and my first session with the Cardiologist. While I was there, he went ahead and done an ultra sound on both of my legs. He was really concerned about the discolor of my legs. Diabetes have my legs looking like they are going to rot off. He wanted to be sure there were no blood clots. I guess there were none because they didn't say anything prior to me leaving there. Yet sometimes that does mean the quiet before the storm. But, I'm not claiming that. I got my 3rd weigh-in on Monday morning.
Anyway....
I have to go back for my 2nd session with the Cardiologist on August 7. After that, he should be able to give me a clearance. After that, I won't have nothing else left to be done except my last weigh in around August 20th. After that, everything will be sent on to the insurance for approval......YAHOO!
I'm not as excited as I was at the beginning. The reason for that is because I realize that I really don't have the support of my family. I started noticing how they change the subject anytime I bring up the surgery. Then it occurred to me that they really are not happy for me. I finally discussed my concerns with them and I think they are just scared. My daughter seem to believe that I can lose the weight by dieting and exercising like I'm starting to do now. She says that she think I'm trying to take the easy way out. That really bothers me. But like I told them.....nobody knows how I feel and what I'm going through trying to control my diabetes. I wake up everyday checking my blood sugar and my numbers are over 200!! I can't get them down. Tried everything and I won't even mention the Applecider vinegar process I've tried. I don't want to get on insulins but I'm afraid that it will be the next thing the doctor prescribes. She's already got me on the strongest form of Metformin that's on the market......not to mention the highest. So, they don't know my struggles and they don't try to know. I told them, that I'm sorry that they feel the way they do, but their feelings and concerns will not change my mind at this point. I'm in too deep now and I know that this is the best thing for me. I've prayed about it and God has shown me that it is good.....so it will be.
I now lean closer to my support group and this website for my encouragement and motivation. I must do me at this point and what is best for me. Because at the end of the day, it's all about me now.
On a good note, I have already started changing things in my life. I'm spending the day drinking plenty of water. I have given all of the sugar drinks the boot. when I go out to eat, I get water only. Don't know when I had a soda pop. Now that's a major accomplishment. The other thing is that I've been walking almost daily. I'm now up to 2 miles a day....5 times a week....."big grin".
I'm already feeling good about myself. I want to get up to 5 miles a day. Maybe after the surgery. But my goal after the surgery is to start running!!! I will give anything to be able to run. The day is coming. Until then, in the meantime, I will continue on with my walking and getting stronger. Stay tuned!
