Hi Katherine! So glad you are here on this website and you are sharing your experience!! Please don't ever be ashamed of yourself! You are a beautiful wonderful person-you are one of a kind and most importantly, one of God's children and He loves you....don't ever forget that!! Take care and I'll be praying that your insurance will cover this surgery. I will keep my profile updated once I have a surgery date, so check back with me, okay? If you have any questions or you just want to talk, I'm only an E-mail away. Hugs and Love to you!