Full of Pain

Apr 23, 2014

That title says it all.. I have been in pain ALL day long. My back is killin' me, it radiates all the way down to my knee. This is new, btw. I think my body has reached its capacity. I can't take much more. I really need my surgery more than ever right now. & Before I started this I made a promise with myself that I was going to be straight up honest in these blogs because if my story and what I go through can help someone else in any way, it'll be worth it so with that being said, the most embarrassing thing happened to me today in Wal-Mart. I dropped my car keys and when I bent over to pick them up, my pants ripped. Now, it wouldn't have been embarrassing if nobody saw but they did. This lady just gives me a smile as if to say she feels sorry for me or something. I had my moment, I cried this evening but then I picked myself back up. I strongly believe it's not about how many times you fall down but rather if you get back up. I done this to myself. I will get through it. This storm by the grace of God will pass. I just keep thinking about how my body is going to feel so relieved once this weight starts coming off and how much better I'm going to feel. I don't think I'm going to know how to act when I don't have obesity related pains everyday lol. It's gonna be amazing. I also wanted to share two Bible verses with anyone who is going through the same storm, the first one is, Psalm 50:15 "And call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me." The second one is, Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." I strongly believe in both of these and they have helped me tremendously and I pray they help you. For everyone that had surgery today, yesterday, tomorrow or recently, my thoughts and prayers are with you and I pray everything is smooth and complication free for you!  Take care guys. God bless, XoXo.

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