14 months out, and sometimes I still don't get it and realize that I am always a work in...

So last night was my 12 year wedding anniversary, I am at my lowest weight since I was in maybe the 3rd grade (no, I am not exaggerating!), so I decided to say EFF IT, I am going to eat what I want at dinner (anyone see where this is going?)

So this is what I order -

French Onion Soup to start, Coconut shrimp appetizer, 10 oz sirloin with crab stuffed shrimp and fresh steamed veggies and a Blue Moon to wa**** down with (and to hell with it, I am going to drink while I am eating damn it!). 

I eat the cheese off the top of the soup, couple sips of beer, get down three shrimp and that's it, I have to throw in the towel, my Sleeve has called it and it's a TKO, I am down for the count. My dinner came and I just looked at it and knew that I was not going to get in one.single.bite of it, so I just asked for a box.

It was in that moment that I realized exactly what I was doing, I was celebrating the FOOD and not the milestone with my husband that I was there to celebrate. I gave myself a little kick in the ass, and then put it aside and just enjoyed the next hour sitting and talking to my husband, reconnecting, laughing and soaking in the atmosphere ( also looking hot in my amazing boots and dress, and with no kids to make me crazy!).

That food demon still gets the best of me, I still have to work to shut it up. It is easier now to quite it and recognize exactly what I am doing, but it's just proof that this journey is a lifelong one that requires dedication and endurance and the better a foundation you lay at the start, the better you are going to be in the long run.

Great post.  We are all still works in progress and I really think that maintenance can be harder to deal with mentally than the weight loss.  I get the same moments of saying, " I am 103 lbs, eat something".  :)  The sleeve is there to help us during those moments.  I kind of think of it like this, most of the time, I do the majority of the work, but when I am weak, my sleeve carries me.  I think this along with the reduction in ghrelin is why I can do this now and could never maintain long term before.  I always have a safety net. 

Do I hear that August Sleeve Sista!!!  I packed some chicken salad that I made for lunch but thought I packed enough for 2 days.  After a few bites, I feel those little gurgles in my throat from having enough... I think I brought enough chicken salad for 5 days this week!!!

Where's the hot pic of you in your amazing boots and dress Courtney??  You know we all wanna see!!!!

Rock that gurl!!!

You are a true inspiration, Courtney.  That strong foundation from the beginning is SO important!!  Keep up the good fight!

I have done that when I let myself get hungry by going to long without eating.. but thank God for my sleeve that said nope you are not going to eat all of that, so I have started to recognize the behavior and no matter how hungry I think I might be still stick to the measured portion and it will be enough.

Thanks for this post..

HAHA! I did this while I was in Dallas last spring. Luckily I was with my Sleeve friend and she was smart enough to see that I was ordering enough food for an army.

Needless to say, we had lots of leftovers.

We are all works-in-progress.

I already knew where that was going to end up....the two of us couldnt finish a single meal haha.


Next time...I want a post about how you drank 5 blue moons before you started eating :)


Congrats on the anniversary. Your husband is the luckiest guy and probably had the hottest wife last night!!!

Great post.....
That's the payoff for preserving your restriction.... The safety net.....

Pics of date night????

frisco

Happy Anniversary and great post!

 Happy anniversary! And yes, pic please!