A year ago today, I was born again PIC

 

A day like today, a year ago, I walked in to a hospital a broken woman.  Broken by my own hand because I had let my weight take control of my life.  I was a person without any self-confidence, I felt worthless to everybody because I thought I was worthless myself.

 

I was a person sick with sleep apnea, high blood pressure, and borderline diabetic that took me about an hour to stop limping in the morning because my legs and ankle were swollen every morning, but worse, I was a girl that couldn’t walk into a store and couldn’t buy the pretty things in the window because they didn’t fit.  That would go into a dressing room and cried because nothing fit.  I was the one wearing black every single day, because I didn’t realized it at the time, I was in mourning, in mourning for the life I thought I never was going to have.

I would walked into the train and I would see an empty seat and I could see the eyes of the person sitting in the one next seat thinking to himself “ooh God! Please don’t sit here, you would fit”.  I remembered I share with you something that happened a couple of weeks before my surgery, I walked into the train and these three teenagers girls were sitting down and I sat on the seat next to one of them.  When I sat there, one of them got up and said loud enough that other people in the train heard her “God I hate the smell of french fries, fat people should be all round out and send to their own island.”  I got up nearly in tears and got out in the next station because I knew that comment as directed to me.

Then June 4, 2012, I was born again and remembered waking up from surgery and feeling different.  I KNEW that a new phase in my life was starting that day.  On July 15^th I started going to the gym 6 days a week, something that I have done everyday since.  I am now a gym rat, I have turn in to that girl I hated in the train, the one with her gym bag, Yoga mat wearing gym clothes after work.

I am now a runner, I run everyday.  Instead of going online to go to the plus size website to look for clothes, I am looking for races to join.  I am the girl that is going to be running her 10k in two months, and I am the one that has promise herself that she is going to run the NYC Marathon.

I am the girl that walks into a store now and pick up things that she like and tries them on not to see if they fit but to see if they look good.  I am the one sitting in the train on a seat with space to spare. 

Congratulations!  You were beautiful before - but your are gorgeous after - congrats!

This post has to be one of my all time favorites !!!!

Congrats !!!!

I see a fixed woman !!!

frisco

What a fantastic post!
Congratulations to you!!
You know that commercial there running right now with the Dr for lap-band?
Your post would make the most awesome testimonial for VSG!!

You are a beautiful woman, a beautiful person and a beautiful writer.  Thank you for the inspiration, and for sharing your story.  I see your spirit shining through in your photos and in your words.  You are the poster child for success.  Hugs.

Wow, you look great.  Thanks for posting.  This is so inspiring.

Carol

Congratulations on your rebirth and new life! Your joy and exuberance for life shines through in your photos! You are truly a success story!

That was beautiful on the inside and out.   

You are... amazing!

Thank you for sharing your story - you are such an inspiration. Congrats on your success! You look amazing!