9 days out and thinking WTF have I done?!

2 days out of the hospital I cried and cried. And cried some more. There were times I found myself in shock; I couldn't believe I had actually gone through with it. As a proud Foodie and @ home Chef I mourned all the foods that I'd never be able to eat again. I wanted something to help me LIMIT the foods, not banish certain foods from my diet completely.
All of the food commercials are taunting me, my Bon Appetit subscription makes me sad...I am really in that place where I want food! I miss cooking: and dropping a dang bullion cube in a cup of boiling water isn't cooking!!
I feel that this was the biggest mistake of my life (and trust me, Mama has LIVED and learned). Someone please tell me that this too shall pass. Or will I continue to loathe my 'new stomach' because its stolen my passion from me (cooking)?

 Ok....you are just going through the what did I do to myself mode.   Trust me...most of us ALL think what you are thinking now.    Depending on what foods you are speaking of you can or will most likely be able to eat them again.     There is really nothing that I can't eat today ( almost 7 yrs post op RNY ).     I just enjoy the foods in smaller portions.   Life after WLS is just different than before WLS.  You are just now in the beginning stages.....in several months and lots of weight dropped you will be feeling alot different that you are right now.   Just hang in there and don't be so discouraged right now.   You will be OK trust me.    

Hugs and blessings ~~~ Vivian

I am a MAJOR foodie - I have eaten everything from snake heart to kangeroo to horse!   The only foods I can no longer eat (without severe repercussions) are cereal with mil**** cream and white processed foods like cake ...

I really don't miss the things that make me sick because I CAN eat all of the other stuff that I can enjoy - not in volume but in quality and taste!

Life doesn't stop after WLS it just adapts - you will enjoy food again, maybe not for a while, but I promise, you will!

Yep, this will pass.  I believe most post ops have felt very much like you do. 

However, after a few months, you will wonder why you didn't do this earlier.  The biggest mistake in your life will turn into the best thing you ever did.

Hang in there.

This too shall pass....

Focus on how you felt before surgery that led you to do it.  Will it get easier to manage and to enjoy eating? - Yes.  Will your tastes change? -They might. Some people stop craving things they use to love and learn to love other food items.  Some still like the same things, just less of it.

Once you get past the liquid and soft food stage, you'll feel better. It gets easier.  The management of fluid intake and protein become second nature. It will be fine.  Just follow the food progression as the doctor instructs you and stay away from high sugar items.  This will help you avoid unnecessary complications or bad experiences.

Cooking wise... I cook like crazy.  You will have to as well, because its really hard to find healthy food at restraunts (not to mention its expensive).  Go google the blog called "The World According to Egg Face"  Her recipes were my bible getting through the early stages post surgery.  Nummy stuff.  My favorite are the pizza bites.  When you are 6 months out, you should look at some of the Jamie Eason Live Fit Recipes (protein breads/bars) - best ever.

One thing that you need to come to terms with is what's going on inside your head.  It was a huge decision to have the surgery - life changing and IMO for the better.  But what lead you into the condition you were in prior to surgery needs to be addressed, kept in the forefront, and never repeated.  For me, I'm a stress eater and to deal with it, I set a few rules - no food other than in the kitchen, and clean the house, walk or hit the gym when I feel like I want to munch (because its not due to hunger, but stress).  I keep a pre surgery picture on my frig and next to the computer to remind me not to repeat past mistakes.

It will get better.  You will be fine.  You will enjoy food again.  You will find yourself cooking a lot down the road.

 I am 4 weeks out and don't know that I have caved anything. I have questioned why I did this because of how nauseated I have been. I mean severe. ER for dehydration, hospitalized for 3 days, and had to get fluids at my last check up. All of this nausea while on nausea meds, suppositories; and a patch. And it wasn't coming and going it was constant. It has recently started to get better. I have cried to my husband telling him how sorry I am because I only wanted to get healthier for our family and now I am sick. I have been told I will no longer regret it once this passes and I'm starting to feel that way a little bit. Give me another month. Not sure which surgery you had but you should be able to still cool and enjoy food at some point. It's new and fresh. Feel free to message me if you want to talk or vent. 

I am a month out and I just started to feel nauseated where I don't want to eat...everythings smells horrible and makes me sick to my stomach.  When I do eat,, 45 minutes later I am having a bowel movement which has led to hemorroids!!!  This is horrible!!

 I hear ya! But I'm thinking as long as your able to progress the planned eating you'll be back to beeping a foodie in no time. 

PTI on the other hand am almost 3 months out nd still on TPN from complications. I'm hoping to soon be able to get more then 20 grams of protein in. 

On the other hand my body is going thru major changes, and even after 8 trips to the or and countless vomiting I know in te end this will all work out and I'll be a better healthier person for it. 

I know how you feel!  And I think this is a normal part of our journey!  I had a revision to RNY on August 1st and as I walking to the O.R.  I started crying and almost chickened out and then, about two weeks out, I started crying again asking what had I done to myself??  But 28 lbs down and feeling great just reinforces the fact that I couldn't do this on my own.  I have been checking into this forum daily, reading posts and getting words of wisdom (and support) from those who have gone through the same thing as we are and it feels good.  I am learning more about pouch friendly food and the Weight Loss Channel has Chef Dave (a RNY success story) with tons of ideas and recipes.  You will feel better once you can start adding normal food to your diet..I know I do.  The head hunger thing is something that I learned about through reading posts and so I limit TV and am reading more books to keep from daydreaming about my old friend food lol! I am experimenting with my magic bullet and pureed food isn't so bad compared to liquid diet!

Take care and stay focussed on the positive!

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 I think I enjoy cooking more now that I've had surgery (3 years ago).  I found that looking at recipes and tweaking them to weight loss friendly ones (and tasting the same if not better, but healthier) has been a fun challenge for me.  Many of us got to the point of needing wls because we are foodies and now we can use that to our advantage.