Before and After
Last night I decided that before and after pictures were great BUT I stepped briefly back in time and wrote myself a letter.
A before letter, that spoke about how I felt, what I was eating, what I wasn't doing. I gave myself advice about having WLS, why I wanted it, how important it was, what a gift it would be. What my hopes were, what determination I felt to FINALLY get off the roller coaster. How I would never take for granted what I could achieve. How food was not my friend and how great it would be to not NEED it so much. How my children needed me to live a long, healthy life and be there for my grandchildren. How nasty my pain is and how much better it could get. Not being ashamed at "meet the teacher nights". Not being devastated by not fitting well in a seat. Being too heavy to ride a HORSE!
Basically an "application letter" with the goal of convincing someone that I deserved and needed the surgery and that they should allow me to have it. It's cool that some people can have blogs, but I suck at managing time I don't have, and I don't want to leave myself without any evidence of an important choice.
It is taking up residence in an envelope in the picture frame with my before picture (that includes my family). I plan to keep it around to remind me exactly what is riding on my success and, to the extent that I so badly wanted the opportunity, I need to be forever committed to not squandering it.
Hopefully, when times are rough, I will be able to give myself a good talking to, and remind myself what is at stake.
Just a share because I think it might be something pre (and maybe post) ops can do to think about the process, and the reasons we started this journey.
I was working on my weight loss smash book and there was a really cool sheet that said "Advice to my future self" and I thought it was so fitting!! I am def going to write a full letter!!! Thanks for sharing this!!
That is a wonderful Idea! If you don't mind I think I may do the same! :)
~Lisa
Referral:April 4th, 2012.Letter Received for Orientation:June 4th, 2012.Orientation: Sept. 24th, 2012. Blood Work: Dec 14th, 2012. Dietician: January 30th, 2013. ECG Done: January 30th, 2013 Gastroscopy: Feb. 5th, 2013. Social Worker: Feb. 8th, 2013(Canceled, due to snow storm). Abdominal Ultrasound: Feb. 12th, 2013. Surgeons Appt. Feb. 20th, 2013. Social Worker(Rescheduled): Feb. 25th, 2013. Internist: March 4th, 2013. Meet the Surgeon: March 12th, 2013.No Sleep Test Needed. Opti Started: July 16 - 30, 2013.Nutrition Class: July 18th, 2013. PATTS: July 19th, 2013 Surgery: August 2nd, 2013.