Doesn't take much
Even though it has been almost 3 years I still have the "fat" head. I remember going shopping for the first time and how overwhelming it was. To go from having a limited selection and having to buy what fit to actually having a choice, a large choice of clothes was too much at times. I use I have a small section in the corner of stores and now I have a huge section in the stores a I have choices, I can have a taste of what I like was amazing. The first time I actually bought clothes was in January 2011. I had some 18's from a few years back and wore those. I was a 26 at surgery time. I was bringing laundry down stairs and I could feel them falling down but didn't want to stop so I made my legs a little wider in hopes to keep them from falling off. My stairs went up and there was a small landing and then there were about 8 more steps. I took that first one and my pants came down and I fell down all those steps on my butt. I ended up with a fractured tail bone. I was forced to go buy new pants. I went to old navy and the ladies helped me, she asked what size I was and out of habit I said 20, she looked at me like I was nuts. In the end I was a size 12 which I Hadn't been since preschool(not really but a long time) I finally realized I was scared to give away my clothes for fear of failing and gaining it back. I did keep one pair and when I have a bad day I remind myself how far I have come. I never regretted my decision and I would do it again in a heartbeat!!
