Dear God, please let me dump...

I am 5 months out and lost 65#.  Only 15 to go.  This past week I have been struggling very hard with the desire to overeat.  I am not hungry.  I just want to stuff myself like I used to.  I prowl around the kitchen looking for something to pig out on.  Luckily there really isnt much around.  But today, I lost it.  I had large shortbread cookie with frosting, ice cream, cinnamon toast, chocolate milk, and chocolate candy.  And now I am praying that I dump.  Up till now I have been so careful not to eat sugar for fear of dumping and also for fear of not dumping and then returning to my old ways.  So its been 15min since I finished my little binge, and so far just feel too full.  Please, let me dump!!

More than likely you are NOT going to dump.  Only 30% of RNYers dump, I'd venture to say if you aren't feeling horrible yet it won't happen. 

I would have dumped off of any of those things in a reasonable portion - you would know by now (15 mins) - sorry!

I would be in bed in a carb coma sick as a dog by now...but I don't always have the same reactions.  Something that may have not made me sick before might make me sick now....You fed the desire...you will be fine.

I understand how you feel.  I can show awesome self-restraint 90% of the time, but put sugar in front of me and I eat crap I KNOW I shouldn't.  Pre-surgery, I was hoping against hope that I'd get dumping syndrome when I ate sugar post-op.  No such luck.  I get a little queasy, but definitely not the "dumping" that I hoped for.  The queasy feeling isn't enough to make my sugar-lovin brain say no!  I don't buy naughty stuff to keep at home, but there was a pot-luck lunch at work today and I ate a frosted shortbread cookie.  Then I went back like 30 minutes ago and ate another.  UGH.  It makes me mad and ashamed and disgusted all at once.

looks like we are on the same track, my surgery was 10-25-12 and have lost similar amount of weight.  Sugar has ALWAYS been my downfall.  But interesting, nothing I ate today tasted as good as i remembered.  Maybe because I was getting so full.  Anyway, its been 40 minutes and still just feel too full and a little queasy.  

 

Yeah. You would've dumped already. all those things, in moderation, don't hurt. I would've dumped with one. Looks like you're gonna have to use some good old fashion self control. Or just eat one thing every once in a while.

SIDE NOTE:  Dee.*****  you look amazing.  How the H*%# did you do it?  Please share ?

Nothing special. Just followed my plan. I exercised like crazy at the begging. Everyday for at least an hour. I ate only what was on my plan. I took my vitamins. Now taking them is second nature. I don't even think about it. I just do it. I still excersize, just not every day. (I've slacked off a bit on this.) I was only eating three times a day before (breakfast lunch and dinner, 1/4 cup each) now I eat about 4/5 times a day, my 3 meals and two snacks, usually veggies or PB. That's it!

Yep, with all of that sugar, you would have started to feel bad even before you started posting 15 minutes later.  Since only 1/3 of us dump, the odds were always against you, anyway.  Even some of those who dump find that the urge to eat sweets is  sometimes stronger than the memory of how miserable they we the last time they gave in, ate too much sugar, and dumped.  So even some dumpers are not deterred from eating sweets.

I feel obligated to express my serious concern about the content and quantity of what you ate.  That wasn't just giving in to a craving and having an iced cookie (or two)... that is about as much of a binge as a RNYer can probably manage.  There is clearly a psychological/emotional issue that you need to deal with if you are going to be successful long term.  As you yourself said, you consciously wanted to "stuff myself like I used to".  Please seek out a counselor who can help you identify what is at the root of the desire to binge and help you address it so that you can be successful losing the weight and, even more importantly, maintaining the loss.

Lora