It's official...

Keystone First called me today and said these magic words:

" We have received a request from a Doctor David Wernsing for the gastric bypass procedure and the request has been approved."

I literally topped breathing.  I thanked the young lady for her call and simply sat for a moment.  I have spent all night trying to wrap my mind around the fact that WLS is actually going to happen.  I mean I knew it was going to happen but now...

IT IS REALLY GOING TO HAPPEN.

I know this sounds ridiculous but I am so stuck.  My brain is simply refusing to work. 

I know I need to start preparing myself.  I need to start buying my foods and protein.  I need to gather stuff for the hospital stay and all that good stuff.

But I am SO stuck on....OMG...this is really happening....

I am trying so hard to get myself together but I am struggling. I am terrified.  I am starting to have doubts.  I tend to be an extremist and maybe this is just another hail mary attempt on my behalf. I know I need to lose weight and keep it off as well.

Sighs...I barely ate. My stomach is in complete knots.  I tried to work out but I couldn't stay focused.  This is the first time I have been able to sit still since I got the news. 

Somebody help me!  I am going nuts here. 

Congratulations on your news! It will all come together. It is normal to feel nervous. I got my approval in less than a week after submitting my paperwork. I was in such denial. I was waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. I was never nervous until in the operating staging area the day of surgery.  I had wanted the surgery for so long, prayed for it, wished, hoped and dreamed of what it would be like to actually lose weight and feel better. Now that I am on the other side I am feeling so blessed. I don't take a single day for granted. It was hard in the beginning but as time goes on, I am learning how to live this way. I can now really see myself living like this forever. Taking my vitamins, getting my fluids and protein in. I am still struggling with exercise but I know I'll get that locked down soon. Best wishes on your journey. See you on the losers bench :)

WHOO HOO FOR YOU!!!!

Congrats!!!!

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I understand how you feel.  When mine was approved, my up-to-now iron stomach went into knots for a week. Then for some reason, a week later on the pre-op appointment day, I felt better. 

Till yesterday, one week till surgery.  Now, I'm second guessing which surgery I should have. Thoughts running through my head constantly..."should I call and insist I want the sleeve instead of RNY?"  "It's too late to change surgeries now"  "Trust the doctor you chose, he recommends RNY"  "RNY is too drastic" "if I call, they will postpone the surgery"...... and the more I read the boards on RNY vs Sleeve, the more undecided I am.

It's very worrisome.  Best thing to do is take deep breaths, and positive self talk. 

One step at a time.

~Barbara

Congratulations!  This is what you have been working towards.  I found out two weeks ago and my stomach immediately became unsettled.  I can't tell you how badly...I'm always in the potty.  I've been mentally ready for seven months, or so I thought.  now I'm crying constantly...stressing about making sure the house is organized for the time I am away from the kids....logistics...all of it. I think it's normal.  On 9/10 at my pre-op orientation, it will all come to reality for me.  That's when the real count down begins. 

We are all in this together.!!!