12/23/09

Dec 22, 2009

Eat protein, limit carbs, and excercise.  These are my new concentrations.
Last year during the holidays, I was pregnant.  I had the band, but was unfilled enough to eat whatever I wanted... and did.
This year is my first holiday officially having to live the lifestyle of the banded, and damn it is difficult.
I am beating myself up over every bite.  I know the stress is effecting my weight loss.  Also, the busier I am the harder I am finding time for the gym.  I have maintained, so that is good considering my festive binging, but I am so not where I want to be mentally.  I find myself emotionally eating more often than not.  I know I am not hungry, but it doesn't seem to be stopping me.  Perhaps I should start seeing the therapist again. 
I just thought I was done with that.  But, maybe not.
My band feels tighter this week, but somehow I still manage to eat the bad stuff. 
I plan to "detox" the carbs out of my system after Christmas.  I will be going to the grocery store Saturday and therefore will plan my meals for the next week.  Less carbs.
Carbs really make me feel bad physically anyway.  I am just completely addicted to them.
Until Saturday, my mantra will be to maintain and not gain.  So long as I don't gain weight in the next few days, I will be happy with that.
I suppose we all struggle this time of year with our unhealthy eating habits.  It is just so much more noticable to me this year.

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