Cathy W.
The Journey of Losing Weight/Maintenance
Sep 28, 2010
I go through periods where I'm a scale slave. When I was losing weight, weighing myself once a day was very important for me staying on track. Now that I'm nine years post-op, I'm much more in tune with my body. I know when I'm up just by the way my body feels and how my clothes fit. I've toyed with still weighing daily and also weighing once a week and even once a month.Honestly, losing weight was easier than maintenance is. When I was losing weight, the difference was amazing. Every day was an adventure. I was rapidly changing clothes sizes, wearing sizes I never remember wearing before. The comments of people were such a high. Now, in maintenance, it is more difficult, certainly not the "cake walk" (sorry, for that food reference) or no brainer I thought it would be. I really have to combat "oh just this bite" or "just this once" or "I'll get back on track tomorrow" - ick, the back on track tomorrow one is so much like my old diet mentality.
Maintenance is much different than I thought it would be. I thought it would be a no brainer. I arrived! It isn't. It is still work, many times hard work. There aren't necessarily the highs you get when losing weight, getting down a size and the excitement of WOW moments. I thought maintenance would be fairly effortless; it isn't.
I don't mean to be negative here. I was just thinking about the difference in losing weight and maintenance, and how different they are. I'm not complaining because I am deeply grateful to be in maintenance. It is just different and honestly more of an effort than I thought it would be. Although, that effort is a gift every single day.
In some ways, I'm grateful for the journey of being morbidly obese - having surgery - losing weight - maintenance because it really has taught me so much about myself. Years ago, I had a friend that was one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. In my mind, she had it all - beautiful and thin. Yet she was pretty empty inside. She was very superficial. Her depth began and ended with her externals. Looking back, she was very self-centered and so concerned with what she was wearing and how she looked. I remember admiring her wishing I was like her.
Fast forward years ahead to today. There is NO WAY I want to be like her. Actually, thanks to the journey of being morbidly obese and the path it has taken me to where I am today, I'm grateful to be me. The journey has made me much more compassionate and caring, more insightful and aware of my emotions and actions, has made me goal-oriented and caused me to be able to work for OH plus add to my career of being a PCC accredited coach. If I had been that person I knew years ago, I wouldn't live the life I have today.
Sure, I get down, frustrated and still struggle with emotional eating/head hunger. But today, I have the tools to combat that habit but use the underlying reasons to my benefit. It is important to me what I look like but I'm not obsessed with my externals but am more concerned with my insides and who I am as a person and achieving my dreams. I don't know where that person is today but I know where I am. I wouldn't trade lives with her for anything. I love my life and who I am today. All because I started out on the WLS journey.
Enjoying the journey.....
Cathy
www.mydailyminutes.com
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About Me
18.6
BMI
Surgery
10/21/2001
Surgery Date
Aug 04, 2003
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