Not Feeling Content Today - Cravings!

Nov 06, 2011

I want a swig of Mountain Dew so badly. Or a bite of juicy apply pie just like my mommy makes. Or a chocolate malt. Or even a piece of toast. As I'm writing this, I'm pinching up little chunks of tuna salad, just trying to fill up my pouch.

I've been childless today since my parents took my munchkins to Green Bay for their cousin's birthday party. Last night they asked if we were going, but since that was the first we had heard about the party (we were not invited), I suggested they just take the kids. There's a big ugly backstory, but my mom keeps forgetting that I'm not welcome at my brother's house. There's some pain there, but mostly annoyance that their stubborness and just-plain-old-mean attitude would make my precious mother sad for even a moment. So the kids are gone.

But since we started the day with a gigantic fight where I was defending (again) my 5.5yo son to my husband who were both engaged in a ridiculous pissing contest over a freakin' pair of socks and a button-down shirt, I haven't felt warm and fuzzy towards the husband. So what could have been a nice "date" day has been a little more lonely than normal. At least I had a good cry this afternoon while watching Nights in Rodanthe. 

Lots of love to all of you on here. I hope you are staying strong and staying on plan! 

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